And then I became one with the cashier at the supermarket…

I just got curious, mega curious, about what would happen ‘beyond imagining.’ What we as humans would be capable of if we lived in full freedom and truly felt the connection to everything again. This quest led me to intense meditations, beautiful breathing sessions, and even psychedelics (the truffle). Each experience gave me insight into a dimension that I felt/knew was there but had never really seen until then.

And yes, that experience in the supermarket was just the beginning.

It happened after a super intense Pineal Gland meditation the night before, which allowed this to suddenly emerge. I was living in Spain at the time and was just doing some shopping. One moment I was staring ahead in the queue, and the next, I suddenly felt at one with everything! I felt the checkout, the people, the baskets—I felt everything because… I WAS EVERYTHING! I was both the till, myself, the people around me, and the shelves of products. I was everything.

I know, this sounds too bizarre! And you don’t have to believe me, but once you experience something like this, you just know: this is real. Incidentally, this experience is not an end in itself, because being completely one with everything means you no longer exist. You dissolve, as it were. In daily life, that’s somewhat impractical.

But I now knew that unity existed on another layer, and that I could make contact with this field of everything and thus feel our true connection. This realization opened up a field of unprecedented possibilities. I could start playing with this energy and information. What was possible?

The title of the book ‘I Gave Birth to the Universe’ already hints at it. It didn’t stop with this one bizarre experience in the Spanish supermarket.

It became a rollercoaster of adventures where I really wanted to stretch my mind, throwing all limiting thoughts and beliefs overboard to see what would emerge purely from within me. What else would I get to see?

Well, be careful what you wish for…


I wanted to write the book no one else had written—the book that raw, uncensored, and shamelessly tells the whole story of what happens when you take that leap. What happens when you start answering that one pressing question inside yourself? When you begin looking outside the box of society, giving yourself true freedom to be all that you are? How do you even begin to find out who that is? And what happens when you clear those heavily overgrown paths to unravel deep mysteries within yourself?

The world of personal development is awash with people showing only the pretty side, but this journey is far from Instagram pastel…

This book is especially for all those brave souls—the dreamers and visionaries. For anyone who’s ever felt like they were born on the wrong planet.

Away with conformity and rules. No structure, leaving the mind in a state of utter confusion.

Break it open in yourself and in the world!

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Tessa Smits

"I am Tessa Smits, and I will take you on an adventurous journey to explore the unknown and the supposedly impossible. My second novel, ‘I Give Birth To The Universe’, is a prime example of this, where our infinite creative power takes center stage. For me, art is the means to make tangible what cannot be expressed in words. Whether I’m creating art, writing, or crafting something else, my intention remains the same: to seek out what truly touches us, what is real, and what reminds us as human beings of who we truly are—immeasurably powerful."